Name: shaXu
Location: shah alam | kota bharu, selangor | kelantan | lazy | talkative | very loud | shy around new people | a good listener | appreciate friends more than anything |LOVES ilhan mansiz |RoB | nazRiL | to use phrases "Jealous la tuh.." or " sumpah?!" | pizza | JUST HATE due dates | latecomers | noises in the morning | cockroaches |
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
- THE COLOR OF YOU -
Kuza has been an idol to me and I told her that.
With all the bad news thrown at her, she would dust it off and stand up tall to face the day. If I were in her place, I'd be admitted for depression.
Sunshine Yellow.
That's her personality colour.
No matter how bad the situation is, she would be very positive about it. So I took the same test and we were surprised with the end results.
I. Am. Cool Blue.
Emotion (Strengths) :
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I need a plan. That's my blanket.
With all the bad news thrown at her, she would dust it off and stand up tall to face the day. If I were in her place, I'd be admitted for depression.
Sunshine Yellow.
That's her personality colour.
No matter how bad the situation is, she would be very positive about it. So I took the same test and we were surprised with the end results.
I. Am. Cool Blue.
Emotion (Strengths) :
- Deep and thoughtful <--Nana pasti angkat kening
- Analytical
- Talented and creative
- Self-sacrificing
- Sensitive to others
- Remembers the negatives <--so true.
- Low self-image <--so true.
- Has selective hearing <--that's why I'm thoughtful; need to analyze what I'm listening to.
- Guilt feeling <--always.
- Too introspective
- Schedule-oriented <--mmkay..fine, true
- Neat and tidy
- Finds creative solutions
- Needs to finish what he starts
- Hard to please
- Deep need of approval
- Spends too much time planning
- Chooses difficult work
- Makes friends cautiously
- Faithful an devoted
- Deep concern for others
- Moved to tears with compassion
- Seeks ideal mate
- Insecure socially
- Holds back affection
- Unforgiving
- Skeptical of compliments
- Full of contradictions
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I need a plan. That's my blanket.
- INDEPENDENT-
Of all days, yesterday, my car decided to give me some attitude. After Damansara toll, the car window on my side just stopped halfway. Maybe the motor was going crazy? I was pissed.
So I was at the office parking lot, trying to get it up. It was, but in such a super slow mode, I could die. I had to text my boss, informing him that I was around the office with the car problem, just to avoid him accusing me being late. He texted back to wait there as he had asked one of the drivers to assist me.
By the time the driver arrived, the window was up. I thank the driver though but deep down, I'm sure the driver saw me some sort of a helpless girl..
Before the briefing started..
Moi: I told you I'd be fine. Takyah hantar Asri pon.
Boss: Kena la hantar..nanti you stuck kat sana.
Moi: Buat malu je, coz by the time Asri sampai, the window dah ok dah. Sure Asri ingat I gedik2 tak reti. I can handle it la..
Boss: You know what, you should learn to rely on people once in a while. Give people a chance to help you.
Moi: (-__-'). Fine, thanks. Next time, takyah.
Should I be helpless sometimes? It's a weird new thing for me to do it. Not saying that I'm such a hard-a**, independent woman yadda yadda but it's just not me kot? I can be one but just to my brothers.
Haha!
So I was at the office parking lot, trying to get it up. It was, but in such a super slow mode, I could die. I had to text my boss, informing him that I was around the office with the car problem, just to avoid him accusing me being late. He texted back to wait there as he had asked one of the drivers to assist me.
By the time the driver arrived, the window was up. I thank the driver though but deep down, I'm sure the driver saw me some sort of a helpless girl..
Before the briefing started..
Moi: I told you I'd be fine. Takyah hantar Asri pon.
Boss: Kena la hantar..nanti you stuck kat sana.
Moi: Buat malu je, coz by the time Asri sampai, the window dah ok dah. Sure Asri ingat I gedik2 tak reti. I can handle it la..
Boss: You know what, you should learn to rely on people once in a while. Give people a chance to help you.
Moi: (-__-'). Fine, thanks. Next time, takyah.
Should I be helpless sometimes? It's a weird new thing for me to do it. Not saying that I'm such a hard-a**, independent woman yadda yadda but it's just not me kot? I can be one but just to my brothers.
Haha!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
- AND THE HEART SINKS -
For December babies: Tampin and Fazu, we decided to spend our weekend in Gopeng. When I say Gopeng, not the town but somewhere in the jungle where we stayed at Adeline's homestay. Inamadz (the other December baby) can't make it due to..I'm not sure.
We did Kandu caving, nightwalk and also white-water rafting at Sungai Kampar. Water-rafting..the excitement and adrenaline rush; totally different from what I imagined. It was awesome. It was beyond awesome when Firah was the entertainment on the raft.
It was one short but awesome trip.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUZA, FAZU AND INAMADZ!
I've been eyeing on this one particular job for over a month. I've studied, implemented and actually did a proposal just to nail this job. When it was verbally ok-ed; I was so excited, no words could actually describe it. It was like, MY dream job.
My dream Company has always been Sime Darby. I've worked my a** off to be in this Company. I mean, I know my SPM results weren't that great and I didn't go to a well-known university. But I know I can do it so I did what I do best, people skills (ye ke?!) Hahah! It was like a light from the sky, like God was saying "nah anakku.."
But after 4 years, I realized. This may be my dream Company to be in but this is not my dream job. I can't imagine myself doing this for the next 10 years; the unnecessary mental stress, lack of recognition from the Management, blaming game, clerical work etc. I can't do this.
I had to find some place new and this particular job, it was something I didn't know I'm good at. 70% was good to go, I was just waiting for the official interview and letter.
One morning, it came crushing down when I got a text saying that they received another 2 resumes with strong experience etc.
My heart was crushed. I felt numb. I felt tears in my eyes but I couldn't cry. I felt trapped, trapped in this shithole. I felt tricked, tricked into believing that I am getting that job.
They might be calling me for an official interview with the other "2 awesome resumes" somewhere in January but I. Just. Don't. Want. To. Hope. Anymore.
I don't know.