I wasn't feeling well after meeting up with Iz and Fozz, to discuss more about our Perhentian trip. It wasn't about the fear of taking the license or even the planning part or even the exam part..

By 1am, I was down with a fever. I was shaking and sweating, my joints were in pain. I took a few Panadols for every 4 hours and tried to sleep.

I forced myself to wake up after twice pressing the snooze button and I panicked. It was 6.30am and my OBC starts at 7am! Crap. Feeling down that I missed it for the first time for this month, I cried myself to sleep. Nah~ I just went to sleep though I felt so bad. Heheh..

Thanks to Rose when she informed me that I could just replace my session at Damansara Height's evening session. Yay, gonna ace this month!

It took only 15 minutes from my office, against the traffic jams. So it wasn't that bad. I reached there pretty early and Sarge Dann, Corporal Nawal and Corporal Tom were there, unloading the "toys".

"Someone missed her session this morning??"

Damn. I smiled and helped them with the riffles. Fine, cubaan membodek disitu.

HOOYAH SARGE! And there I was, doing extra 5 grunts to help out the visitor, a dude. 15 grunts for me.

After that 1-hour session, we continued our "mingle around" session with the visitors where they asked us a lot about OBC. The usual question that they would ask, how many kilos I've lost after joining OBC. I told them, I gained 2 kg after one month and damn they were surprised. But that was the truth. Muscles are heavier than fats; I've gained weight but my jeans size dropped, clothes size smaller, feel fitter.

So, Friday is the last day for free trial OBC Damansara Heights, evening session (645pm-745pm). What are you waiting for? No harm trying right? Except for some dirt, mud and sweat. Heh!

It is official now that KLGCC's Management will be handling both KLGCC and Sime Darby Convention Center (SDCC)

With the workload that I am doing now here in KLGCC, I am here *tangan di hidung*.

To handle 500 staff it is crazy enough. And my boss just informed that he wants me to handle the HR portion for SDCC, with another 170 staff. I can handle 170 staff but to start from scratch, to clean up whatever crap the Division had left. Lagi membunuh diri kot?

I started off here in KLGCC with zero knowledge on HR. With a help from another HR Executive whose been doing HR for so many years, we managed only 180 staff. I was just handling Training, the other Executive handling Compensation & Benefits and Recruitment. Then she left. From there, I was handling 2 persons job, took it as a challenge la konon. I proved myself that I can do this. From 180 staff to 500 staff, from zero knowledge about HR, I know how it works, decision making etc. But that was it.

So now I am putting my feet down. I don't do work for free anymore. You want my expertise, give me something additional to keep me motivated. It is time to negotiate because all these while, it's just lack of recognition and appreciation.

Fair la kan?

Today's OBC session was pretty quiet.

Turned out there were only 3 of us in Bravo. Don't tell me they're so pissed off with the Energizer Night Run, they decided to stay home?! So just me, Pooi Ching and Su Chin.

My calves were hard as wood after 5.5km run, Pooi Ching's thighs were like a rock after 11km run. And yet, Sarge still asked us to sprint 500m back and forth, with some stationery exercises (mind you, the stationery exercises consist of more legs workout like sumo positions for 2 minutes) It was quite torturing but with just 3 of us there, Sarge was more "one-on-one".

He explained to us on the running method and pinpointed what we did wrong. I wanted to laugh when it came to me. Ball of feet, correct. Posture, correct. But try to keep you heels to your bum. Control your legs at the back because right now, it's all over the place. Aku lari bersepah?! (-_-')

All the way during my first run last Saturday (run yang bodo tu), I was just listening to Britney's songs. Yes, I am proud to say; I listen to Britney Spears..don't judge me! Hahah!

I just love her tacky songs, her sexy dance moves and now..

Those killer abs. Those awesome arms. I wanna! I wanna! I wanna!

I had to do push-ups on my toes (still). I had to do more sit-ups and of course, that 1-minute plank hold. If one of us drop on our knees, 10seconds will be added. Crap.


While doing my plank hold, I tried so hard not to laugh.


He stood next to me with his finger on my back, making sure I'm at the right level.


5 seconds to go and I dropped on my knees. Terlalu flattered kah? Bodoh betol, dah kena add up another 10 seconds. I knew Pooi Ching and Su Chin were cursing at me for making them do another 10 seconds. Hehe..So now my Sarge Dann knew that I'm a Britney Spear's fan.

Bummer.

Best I Ever Had- Vertical Horizon

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Not really. I am busy with work. But I have been doing other things too other that work. To get the "inspiration" to actually update this, it would take a lot of time.

So, what's up?

- Perhentian Getaway -

It has been awhile since the last time I went to Perhentian. So, it's about time for me to go back and have stress-free weekend there.

The boat ride was crazy. It was like we were on an endless roller-coaster ride. It was thrilling for the first few minutes, but after awhile, it got scary. The waves were high and there were times our boat was on air and hit the water so hard. I told my cousin Iz, don't tell my parents about this boat ride or both of us will be lectured.


It was quite gloomy on the first day we were there but the weather gotten better towards lunch hour. The food prepared by Kak Ti was awesome. The chalets were old but cosy and very clean. I even saw Pak Sak, the old man that used to be our boatman during my trip with Abg Ril 5 years back. He's still here and looking good.

Though the water was murky during our snorkeling at the lighthouse, shark-point and turtle-point, the fact that we were swimming freely in the ocean was good enough. I tried free dive (ala2 diving but without the tank and whatever equipment they were using), I managed to get at least 2 meters deep before my ears hurt. Abang Mat (the boat guy) even lent me his weights to help me dive deeper but my ears were in pain after 2 meters. Iz and Abang Mat did teach me to do that equalize the ears thingy but mane reti bang! Haha..

Lighthouse. Awesome. To jump off the lighthouse, cannonball style, it was such a rush! Nanayau and Nadiah wanted to jump and asked me to "teman", but the moment I was in the water, I heard only one splash. Yes, they chickened out, changed their minds the very minute I was off the platform. Damn. I told Iz again, don't tell my parents about this jump or both of us will get it. But it was awesome.

I'm not being secretive with my parents or anything but there are certain things that I prefer not to worry them with all the stupid things I did.

I talked to Mom a day after I got back from Perhentian and I accidentally told her about the boat ride, and there! Got the lecture and Mom just don't know where did I get this perangai crazy-addicted-to-rush. I don't know too la Ma. Hehe..

Overall, the trip was such a sempoi one. Most of us needed a timeout from work and in Perhentian, we got it all. Relaxation, great company, food, freedom and eye-candies. Haha!

Thanks to my dear cousin, Iz Ketambola for all his help, especially when the Yad "drama"..or even during the vomit berjemaah. Haha!

Perhentian, we'll be back. Missing the sea the very next day. Lovesick.

- Someone Called Me Fat -

I've been getting positive feedback that I looked healthier after a few months joining Bootcamp. Personally I felt fitter. I won't say more because I've been telling about this like so many times. Bootcamp is awesome uols!

Anyhoo, you know how I've been battling with self-esteem my whole life. How fragile my confidence is when it comes to my body. So to have someone to comment it during a meeting, it was such a slap on my face.

It was in a meeting and one of the HOD just went like a loudspeaker,"You dah gemuk la!"..yes, out loud, in front of everybody. From the corner of my eyes, I could see some of them were trying hard not to laugh or felt pity at me. And it didn't end there. He asked me to join his gym and the other HOD that went to the same gym was laughing. I wanted to tell him off but why should I down-grade myself to his level? I just say "Tak tanya pon, thanks."

The one laughing? Not so slim either. He has a big beer belly for crying out loud. The one commented? Not that fit either. He jogs on the treadmill for 20 minutes and 10 minutes of weights, and he's like a sick dog, dying.

So, why are you giving me these kind of remarks? First of all, it's not funny. because I don't see myself laughing. Second of all, that kind of a comment, it's like bullying.

I cried on my way back home. My confidence crumbled down like Japan after tsunami. The feeling of not good enough no matter what I do, started to build up. I felt so frustrated, I wanted to turn to food. But a few sms sent my dearest friends kept me sane, supporting me. Then I thought to myself, I have them. They know me better, way better. I don't mind if you have negative thing to say about me, nak tegur ke, but pull me aside and say it. You don't have to tell the entire world about it.

Screw you major loser!

- Diving License -

So been doing the free dive in Perhentian. Actually, to think about it, been doing it everytime I went to any island. I love to swim under water, do that stand-on-your-hands thing.

Some would wonder why didn't I take the diving license?

I know how to swim, I have a dive instructor uncle, a dive instructor aunty, a few divers cousins, my brother is a diver, I have no issue being under water. So what's been holding me back? The reading part and taking the written exam part. (-_-') I don't like to study anymore. Hihi..

Fine. After a few considerations, I've decided to take the license in June, with Uncle Jak..and I'm bringing Fozz and Atie with me! Muahaha!

Perhentian, we're coming back!

- Wannur is a Mrs -

Wan got married last weekend and the event was beautiful. Wan looked so beautiful in her white outfit, glowing gitu. Saw long-time-no-see friends (Zerr, ahem!) and saw some familar faces of OBC (Rose, Nyna etc). Such a small world huh?

Anyhoo, congratulations Wan & Hubby!

- On Your Toes -

What's new with bootcamp?

Nothing much, still torturing and surprisingly, I'm loving every bit of it!

Sickening isn't it?

Rose been really supportive, actually, all of them were really supportive in doing all the workouts. You know, it's funny how some strangers would be so nice and motivates you to do things that you didn't know that you can actually do it?? Paham x?

I registered for Energizer Night run for 5km in April after 1 month joining bootcamp, voluntarily. Then registered for KL-Marathon for 10km in June after 2nd month. And just now, while doing that stupid-most-torturing-I-super-hate grunts, Rose invited me to join the recruits for Bomba Marathon for 10km in May.