Approximately 9.50pm on 14th March 2011, I received a call from Kuza.

She was crying and I knew that second, it wasn't a good news.

Aunty Ruby, Kuza's beloved Mom, passed away after being unconscious after almost 20 minutes. Innalillah.

I wasn't sure my emotions at that time, I felt numb. We just saw her a week back; she was weak but very cheerful, giving us all the tips and advises. I did ask Kuza that afternoon about her Mom. Aunty Ruby was alright, might be discharge the next day as she was on the positive side.

Atie called and at that moment, I broke down in tears.

It felt so unreal.

I could imagine how Kuza's doing; she's heartbroken.

We decided to drive to Tampin early in the morning for the final respect. We reached there around 930am and the moment we walked into the living room, we saw the helpless body of Aunty Ruby. I tried hard not to cry. I have to be strong for Kuza. Kuza came over and we hugged and she cried, we cried.

The funeral went smoothly, alhamdulillah.

Though Aunty Ruby was someone else's Mother but with the sisterhood and bond that we have with each other, it felt like she's ours.

Kuza, Abg Boy, Junior, Yat and Daha, please know that you guys have us for anything. We might be just some strangers, but Kuza and us are sisters for life. Be strong.

Aunty Ruby, you will be missed. We will love, support and take good care of Kuza and the others, as much as we can. Moga Aunty Ruby ditempatkan bersama-sama orang yang beriman.

Al-Fatihah.

Believe it or not, but this is my 3rd month doing OBC.

I myself didn't believe that I survived and "addicted" to it. Surprise! I don't have any problem waking up early every morning for it, except for the days when I have to get up just to go to work. How crazy is that?

It's exhausting but I don't mind at all.

So what changes after 3 months?

I dare not weigh myself after the first month's trauma moment. That was when I felt so down; attended OBC yet I gained like 2 kgs?! It was quite depressing. But it felt better when people been complimenting the difference they saw in me. Besides, I have a few "health-freak" friends, telling me that I gained weight because I've built muscles. Oh really? Ok then.

What changed?

1. I feel fitter.
   
2. I sleep better.
   
3. I don't get tired that easily for no reasons.
4. I watch what I eat
5. I would not give up easily
6. I'll finish what I started (I might be cranky at the same time)
   
7. I feel more confident
8. I can get more clothes that I like

Previously, I registered for runs because my friends asked me to. I wouldn't want to do it because, let's be frank here. Me? Running? Totally not my thing, especially when I just finished eating a large set of Double Cheeseburger. But I registered out of "courtesy". Hahaha..on the day itself, I would have excuses. So I didn't do it. All because, I don't feel like it and I don't have the stamina, if that's what you kids been calling these days.

But after the first month of OBC, I voluntarily registered for Energizer Night race, 5km in April. I still can't picture myself running for 5km but at I feel like I have a pinch of confidence in doing it. It may take forever for me to finish it but I feel like I can do it.

Next thing I know, I registered for KL-Marathon, 10km in June. What the hell? I thought I wanted to "test water" with Energizer Night Run, but how the hell did I get myself register for this one? I have no idea. Thanks to Fazu and Atie. Heh!

I hate my job right now. I'm using OBC as my escapism and I love every bit of it.