For December babies: Tampin and Fazu, we decided to spend our weekend in Gopeng. When I say Gopeng, not the town but somewhere in the jungle where we stayed at Adeline's homestay. Inamadz (the other December baby) can't make it due to..I'm not sure.

We did Kandu caving, nightwalk and also white-water rafting at Sungai Kampar. Water-rafting..the excitement and adrenaline rush; totally different from what I imagined. It was awesome. It was beyond awesome when Firah was the entertainment on the raft.


It was one short but awesome trip.


I've been eyeing on this one particular job for over a month. I've studied, implemented and actually did a proposal just to nail this job. When it was verbally ok-ed; I was so excited, no words could actually describe it. It was like, MY dream job.

My dream Company has always been Sime Darby. I've worked my a** off to be in this Company. I mean, I know my SPM results weren't that great and I didn't go to a well-known university. But I know I can do it so I did what I do best, people skills (ye ke?!) Hahah! It was like a light from the sky, like God was saying "nah anakku.."

But after 4 years, I realized. This may be my dream Company to be in but this is not my dream job. I can't imagine myself doing this for the next 10 years; the unnecessary mental stress, lack of recognition from the Management, blaming game, clerical work etc. I can't do this.

I had to find some place new and this particular job, it was something I didn't know I'm good at. 70% was good to go, I was just waiting for the official interview and letter.

One morning, it came crushing down when I got a text saying that they received another 2 resumes with strong experience etc.

My heart was crushed. I felt numb. I felt tears in my eyes but I couldn't cry. I felt trapped, trapped in this shithole. I felt tricked, tricked into believing that I am getting that job.

They might be calling me for an official interview with the other "2 awesome resumes" somewhere in January but I. Just. Don't. Want. To. Hope. Anymore.

I don't know.