First 5 minutes, power walk.

Next 10 minutes, jogging.

20 minutes after that, running.

15 minutes after, back to power walk.

Final 10 minutes, the cravings kicked-in and the feeling to ditch the routine is like sky high.

Teh ais..daging..teh ais..daging..

This is crazy. Seriously..

How do you stop all these? (Besides NOT to work out?)

Misguided Ghosts- Paramore

I am going away for a while
But I'll be back don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
And it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

And run from them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me
And we just go in circles

Now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify
Our broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

And run to them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away

And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me

They echo me in circles

There's always one thing I realized about myself when it comes to 'fights' and I just confirmed it last two weeks. I don't know if what I do sometimes is considered as super cruel or just plain cruel.

I don't do back-stabbing, bad-mouthing or even kipas just to get to the top or just to be in the 'good' list. What I know, what I learned from Dad is that, work is work and you just do your work with honesty and determination.

Between determination and knocking others down, there's a very fine line and it'd be totally dangerous if you're not careful. To some people, they just don't see that line.

So when the one person like with one year experience, handled just one major event and started to feel like no one can touch her, just don't respect the superior, big-headed when she has one of the big bosses behind her back, started to be bitchy and bad-mouthing you, what would you do?

Oh yeah, one more thing.

Being bitchy about each one of us on her status, on FB when she's aware that we are all connected. Plain stupid and mencari nahas.

A) You confront her and scream like crazy.
B) You confront her and cried, "what did I do wrong?!"
C) Start bitching about her to others.
D) Do nothing.

Well, it didn't happen to me. But one of my good colleague was feeling so down when this happened to her. What hurts the most, it came from someone she trained from day one. So she wanted to confront her and just print out the PrintScreen of all the comments, she wanted to hear the explanation.

But I stopped her.

What's the purpose of confrontation when you know deep inside, you can't even trust that particular person in your team..right? On FB she was bitchy about you and the next day she came to the office, trying to live the day like she did nothing wrong.

I told her to go with the silent treatment.

Ignore.

Don't talk to her. Just treat her like she's not there. Let her go saiko thinking what she did wrong to you (she should know la kan?) Let her be on her own. You just live your life, ignore. Just between you and her, ignorance is the best way. If she still wants to bad-mouth you, let her. All you got to do is ignore and just do your job. After all, she needs to talk to you for reference and discussion. Buat tak tahu je.

The colleague did what I told her for two weeks and yesterday, I received the resignation letter from that person.

Should I feel bad?

I know it was my suggestion but to me I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't tell the colleague to go around, bitching about her or go maki-hamun that person. I just asked her to ignore and just do your work. That person did email her, asking what she did wrong? Why email when you're sitting across her cubicle? And everything in your email was so fake with all the ayat bunga-bunga. After all, we've read the status yo.

Determination is not by knocking others down, right? After a few times being tortured, scolded, dianaktirikan and kena cantas, though all I did is my work with honesty and determination, I've learned something from it.

Giving cold shoulder is psychologically painful.

Have you tried it? Or experienced it?

Organizing an appreciation dinner for 700 staff in 3 weeks was rather crazy but managed to pull it off, with the Walk-in Interview sessions a week before, new staff coming in etc. It went smoothly and I hope that everyone had fun.

Had a great laugh watching those Bangladeshis and Indonesians having so much fun on dancing on the stage, my jaws were almost locked! Haha..

It's done. Finally.

Next would be the Staff Sports Carnival and Annual Dinner. I'm tired. Can't anyone else take over? I need my space for a while.