Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?
Everybody live like it’s the last day you will ever see
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?

We were born for this!

My hands are in pain.

My arms are in pain.

My inner thighs are in pain.

My back shoulders are in pain.

My 'kepaks' are in pain.

It was a misunderstanding at first when they asked me if it's okay for us to do Skytrex Extreme.

In my head, I saw the images of the challenges when we were cycling through earlier. But I was wrong. That was for the kids. I could feel my legs went numb when Nanayau showed me the 'tracks' up..wayyyyyy up on the tree. It was like 22 meters high. They knew I am scared of heights but they were convinced that I knew about it.

I GOT THE WRONG IMAGES IN MY HEAD DAMMIT!

It was awesome actually. Doing it in the drizzling rain, it was cool. I got through it so not a problem for most of you guys lorr..hehe!

Check out the Skytrex. Try it.

Have you ever feel like you just want to sit at the edge of a cliff with the wind in your face?

Have you ever feel like you just want to lay down and stare up the sky full of stars?

Have you ever feel like you just want to stand in the rain and not worrying about anything?

One word for all; calmness. I'm craving for it.

My dear cousin texted me early this morning, while I was lazing around in bed, reading some tabloids (yes, tabloids for breakfast! Geram aku!). She saw my profile picture on FB and complimented that I've lost weight, referring to the skinny' wrists. I laughed like crazy.

Did I lose weight?

I think I did, but not up to extreme where I could labeled myself as 'skinny'. That word, NOT in my dictionary yo! And obviously, itu amat impossible. One thing for sure, if the weights are shedding off, it's gonna be the face: cheeks but never the abdomen or the massive thighs and boobs (excuse me). That is why some people would say I look slimmer when they see me because they'd look at my face first. But after a few seconds, after the overall view, they'd realized; salah statement tu (dengan muka serba salah) Haha..

But I have to admit. My wrist looked extremely thin in that picture kan? Scary.

Everything had tone down a little bit.

Maybe it was so obvious that I was irritated that I've been given my space to breath. Phew. One wrong move to trigger my annoyance, I'd tell that person off. For now, I'm enjoying my huge space with my chicas. Hehe..

I bought myself a new work shoes while strolling around Pyramid today.

I shouldn't buy anything. I was about to leave when suddenly the urge of getting a proper work shoes attacked (dan2 je nak proper shoes for work..what about the other 3 pairs last 3 months?!). I went in Charles & Keith, Vincci but I walked out empty handed, thank God. But, everything crumbled down when my feet led me to Clarks.

Just one pair and that's it.

No more shoes for me for the whole year. (Not 2009 la, lagi 2 minggu je lagi pon..) I mean, no more shoes for me for 2010..and no more handbags for 2010. That's my new year resolutions? Unless it's a gift. So people, presents? Just get me shoes and handbags. Thanks. Haha!

Skytrex tomorrow. Mak nebes nyah!

Cold 1:

In my previous entry, I mentioned about having a pet. I wanted to get a kitten so badly. The choices given were alright but I just didn't have that connection with some of the kittens, so I declined.

One sweet day, a light brown with white kitten just caught my eyes and I was determined to get it. He has everything I wanted; the colors, the corak and so adorable and we connected instantly.

I was about to pay and I looked at him. In split seconds, my mind went bizarre;


Ended up, I walked out of the shop, alone.


Cold 2:

BoBo: Sorry tak call smlm.
CheMek: Tak hal..(sambil belek2 minutes)
BoBo: (keep on explaining why didn't call..)

Mind went bizarre .


CheMek: Alamak, late for meeting. Later~ (quickly got off the buggy before it completely stop).

I think I had cold feet for both situations..as in the magazine would say "self-sabotage".

When it comes to things like commitment or relationship or "seriousness", I tend to back off, had cold feet in a way, that I couldn't explain why. Some would say I'm being paranoid, some would say I'm just scared. Maybe all these while I've been training myself for the worst case scenarios. So when good things are about to happen, I chickened out. It has been going on for so long, it is a disease and it's bad.

How about you? I'm sure most of us had our cold feet moments right?

I am happy, I want to but what the hell am I supposed to do to 'not be scared' to any of these?

Please advice. Haha!

I dragged myself to work today, too tired.

Halfway through the day, I opened up my compact mirror on the table to look at my red sleepy eyes and I just couldn't stop laughing. A small picture on the mirror.

Bobo made me smile. How sweet.

Confirmed.

Remy Ishak is not Adam. Mansor Adabi is not Adam. Adam is Adam.

Attracted to Adam's character all these while, not the actor himself. So, phew~

Went to catch Natrah at Istana Budaya lastnight with Atie. After hearing awesome comments from Kuza and Firah on the 'charmingness' of Remy Ishak, we were nervous in a way. Watching the theater, 8th row from the stage so we got the best view of him, well..technically. Distracted with the musical scenes tho.

At one point, he was alone on the stage, babbling about losing Natrah. Then he went silent. He looked and sumpah I thought he was looking at me because I was giggling all the way. Then he said something like, "Natrah, itu kamukah Natrah, cintaku??"

Out of consciousness, I answered, "Ye abang.." I hope it wasn't that loud. Please. Not again.

I just knew about this Natrah case, thanks to my lawyer friend, Atie, for keeping me updated on what's been going on. Heh!

It has been a rough week for me.

No matter what I do, the small things will be an issue and I get all the scolding. It's like everything is not good enough. If I explained, I'm being labeled as rebellious, big time. A little 'thank you' or appreciation won't hurt. I've been cleaning up your mess pon. Whatever it is, I won't let this piece of shit to screw things that I've worked so hard for. You will torture me whatever, but guess what loser, I'm here to stay. I worked my ass off to be here. If you don't like me, too bad coz I've been doing my job and you can't get me out of here for some silly excuses that you've come up. Sesungguhnya, aku orang yang teraniaya..


Happy anniversary sisters of TKC9600. 14 years of friendship and still going strong.

Fizzy's in town and she's gonna be crashing at my place for the week.

Omg.

Mother-load-of-Korea, at my place?! Please God, help me to be strong not to be Koreanalized by them. HAHAHA!!