I'm going off to PD in two hours to have some fun with the girls for my bestfriend's Bachelorette Party. But since I still have time.. (sambil mengerling bag yang tak siap2 packing lagi..woopst!).

Well last night we went out for our usual movie-date for Terminator Salvation.

Terminator Salvation. Darker, grimmer and more stylistically single-minded than its two relatively giddy predecessors, Terminator Salvation boasts the kind of singular vision that distinguished the James Cameron original. The fourth in the celebrated sci-fi series opens and closes with humanity at war with the machines. In other words, this thing isn't going to end soon.

John Connor is the man fated to lead the human resistance against Skynet and its army of Terminators. But the future that Connor was raised to believe in is altered in part by the appearance of Marcus Wright, a stranger whose last memory is of being on death row. Connor must decide whether Marcus has been sent from the future, or rescued from the past. As Skynet prepares its final attack, Connor and Marcus both had to work together that takes them into the heart of Skynet’s operations, where they uncover the terrible secret behind the possible the end of mankind.

I have to say that Terminator Salvation is not just a good movie, its a fun movie. It has great characters, great acting and mind-blowing visual effects. As much as I expected Christian Bale to be the highlight of this movie really is Sam Worthington who shines brightest (alaaaaaaaaa...)

Although it has its cliche moments Terminator Salvation is a great film that pays great homage to the earlier movies with alot of very subtle references throughout the film that link this movie to the past 3 films. You get to see alot of small things that die hard (not me!hahah!) fans will recognize from Terminator 1, and 2. I did not see alot from Terminator 3 (because I chose to not to watch that 3rd installment) but there were some moments that show elements from T3.

Deep, dark and fulfilling this film is worth checking out. Although a bit weak at points overall the film is intense and the opening 30minutes are easily the best opening minutes of an action sci fi film I have seen in a long time. Go see it. If your a fan or not of the other Terminator films you will still enjoy this movie.

My contract of babysitting the little ones ended yesterday. I was glad but at the same time, I kindda miss them already. On the final night, they were playing and laughing away so I took my own sweet time reading the newspaper. Then Aisyah chased Kijah around, the little one ran into the room and you can actually hear them screaming and laughing away.

Suddenly the laughter went silent. They were really quiet in the room. My instinct told me, that kind of silence means something fishy is going on. I walked in the room and there they were, playing with my clothes. Aisyah was playing dressing up with Kijah and when they saw me standing there, they just laughed like nobody's business. I was supposed to be angry with them for going through my bag but I couldn't help it but smiled and couldn't be mad at them for being such little rascals.

Adoi~

Idya gave me an article from the Star, which she got it 2 years back, "Who needs them?"

It was about being single and dealing with it. The article was so accurate, it seemed like it was written for me. One may be a lonely number but it's certainly better than having someone that you love break your heart. Though I haven't been in a relationship for so long that I've forgotten when heartbreak feels like! Ok, tipu la tu..Ok, not that long and it wasn't a relationship but it hurts as much. But being single for now maybe not a horrible thing, it's not like it's the end of the world when there's so much you can do. Except that it'd be nicer to share it with someone. Isn't it? I don't know.

Not that I'm afraid of heartbreaks because I believe love and heartbreaks are essential for us to understand life. I believe there's someone for everyone. Mr. Right is somewhere out there, he's just as busy as I am and our paths haven't crossed each other yet. That can't be such a bad thing, can it? I'm just saying that at this moment I'm ok but I don't know what would I feel next week or next month or even next year.

Bachelorette party this weekend. Let's enjoy that and forget about this for a sec.

I've been babysitting my two little nieces, Aisyah and Kijah, while my sis-in-law is down south for Perodua recruitment drive.

The first day of the babysitting was rather crucial for me.

I have to make sure Aisyah is up and ready for school and send her off by 7am or I'd be late for work (I have to drive all the way from Rawang to Damansara, mind you..). So I prayed so hard for her not to make a scene early in the morning, or else, I'd just leave her at home. Hahah..So far, ok. Except this morning because Kijah woke up early and she cried like no one's business, wanted to tag along. It broke my heart to leave her like that. But schedule must be followed or I'll be late.

Back from the office, I'll reach Bukit Beruntung around 7pm and the little ones were waiting for me at the door. While opening the gates, they'd be like calling out my names and telling me what they did the whole day. For someone who is super moody/tired and prefer a quiet moment after work, I took it rather well. They'd follow me into my room, asking me all sorts of questions, even while I'm in the bathroom. No privacy, yes..then we'll be sitting for dinner.

At the dinner table..sigh~ Drama, drama, drama..

Kijah would go in her hyper mode and drinks tumpah and whatnot as for Aisyah, she wanted to eat fish for one second, and then she changed her mind and the next thing, they'll be crying, fighting over a toy or the last piece of chicken. Or Aisyah wouldn't want to finish her last bite or Kijah suddenly wants to eat ice-cream or I need to sit next to either Aisyah or Kijah, never in between. What?! Drama isn't it?

Let's move to the tv lounge then, after dinner.

While watching E! channel, one second they'll be fighting over a Barbie or color pencil, one second they'll be giggling and disturbing me. Aisyah would take a long time to finish her homework as Kijah always run away with her color pencils and after 10 minutes, you'd see another artwork on the wall (budak kecik ni mmg cari pasal..) Crying, laughing, running and giggling, normal things for them.

I'll make sure they go to bed by 10pm. In the middle of the night, one of them would be crying coz of nightmare (mengigau..) or I have to get up and prepare some milk for Kijah and change her diapers. So, goodbye 7 hours of sleep.

So that's my first day of babysitting the little ones while working. It sounded so easy and fun but seriously, it's quite tiring, physically and mentally tiring. I don't know how the working mothers go about on this, especially the one without the helper. The house chores, the kids, food on the table and also your career. How do some people juggle that? I don't know what I'd do when my time comes to have a family. Maybe I'd be like Mom, give up your career to raise your kids but in today's economy, can one income take care the whole family? Wow..something to think about, seriously.

I think one thing for sure. Despite their mischief, just looking at them sleeping would make your worst day become better, so peaceful and innocent, such angels..that'd make you think, it's all worth it.

Tapi bila diorang bangon, ya ampunnnn..hahaha!!

I was just standing in front of a mirror, looking at my oh-so-Jojoba hair. The thoughts of cutting it off came into my mind, envying the fact that Fozz cut her hair short after a few years of Simba. Should I, shouldn't I?

That was when I saw it. One thin, fine long white hair, on the right..I hold my breath for a moment, just couldn't believe what I just saw.

I wanted to pull it out but some people say that's gonna grow more. Damn! I just stared. Am I getting old or the work has been stressing me out until I have a grey hair now?! I need to chill.

So, what's new?

Nothing much actually. Been drowning myself in the stressful life of work. No drama or anything interesting, just the same old thing, just it's getting more irritating than ever. Instead of focusing on that crap, I chose to plan for my best friend's bachelorette, family gathering or even next month's activities. You know, to get me going, for me to looking forward to something. At least it's getting me sane.

I don't know I'm getting my period soon or what but lately I've been really emotional on certain things. Like, for example, on Monday..everyone knows the feeling of a Monday blues and of course you need a quiet morning, to adjust your mood swings and whatnot, right? Bamm!! A colleague just walked in and kept on talking and I was stuck with her the whole day. I'm not the kind of person who knows how to tell people off, I was annoyed but I knew if I tell her the truth I might hurt her feelings, she's a veteran pon. So I chose to sit at my table and sumbat my ears with my earphones. I didn't talk or anything (err, just busy designing a few things..hehe!). I'm not a mean person, and I just need my space..=)

Do you feel like nowadays the time just passed by so quickly, it's like, 24 hours is just not enough?

I have a long list of what I have to do and deadlines (not related to work, of course!), parties to plan and what not. Not that I'm complaining but it feels like I'm rushing to settle everything. And guess what? I'm enjoying every second of it, as long as it's not work related, of course! Hahah..since we got to go back early due to blackout at the office, within 3 hours I managed to settle half of the list. Yes, I do have to deal with price negotiations, designs, organizing and people but I just don't mind, as long as I'm not at my table, mengadap paperworks.

Gosh, do I need to rethink my career path??

I have a sad news to share.

I know it's not something I'm supposed to be proud of, some people would die if others know about it. But to me, it's not a secret for me to keep but something precious to be shared with others; how broken this little heart is right now.

My bantal busuk (favorite pillow) finally gave up last night, during CSI New York.

The pillow had a few holes before and some of the kekabu (what's kekabu in English, Fizzy?) were on the bed every morning. I got no worries with that, I just sew the holes. But after a while, I realized my pillow had became 'compressed', where everything was at the other end of the pillow. I put my hand in the pillowcase and there, the kekabu was out and there was a huge hole at the end. There's no way I could sew that up, the damage was too severe.

What did I do?

I tie up the pillowcase and now my pillow looks like a canon ball..wuhoooo!! Hahah..25 (plus) and still have the smelly pillow? I'm not the only one, I bet! Hehe..

I got a few ideas for activities, like for family, friends, reunion and whatnot. I've been suggesting to my cousin, Amak to organize futsal/ basketball tournament between cousins, uncles and the 3rd generation. I got excited, I could imagine aunty Dah would be so loud and uncles would be super pancit! (Konon!! Hahaha!) I wish I could just drop everything and focus in that (with money la..) but office workload has been torturing me.

Vatta?~

Is it too late to report on the OGA visit? Guess not. I'll make it short.

With only 10 of 9600 there during that day yet, we rocked Bukit Merbah. We cheered louder than the juniors, we sang the college song first before the others followed, we hangout with our big CS (college sisters) a bit coz we're still scared of them for no reasons..Haha! We totally made our visit worthwhile.

This is the ground where the 14 years of friendship begins.

ps: Happy 26th birthday to my dearest babe, miss IDYA!!

pps: Happy Mother's Day to my lovely Mama and all the hot Gucci mommas of TKC9600!! Thanks for all the love..=)

I think I'm standing at the edge of quitting.

Honestly, I just felt so drained out, doing things that I don't enjoy anymore. At times I feel like I had it till here..(sambil tangan ke paras hidung..). So many things to do and most of it are more like a routine, I'm bored. I've been thinking about it lately, for the past months actually but I just thought this is just a phase. But these few days, it's getting harder and worse.

It's a torture doing things you're losing interest in. There's nothing to look forward for, but just feeling down and depressed, stressed out, fed-up is the right for it. Everything you do just don't satisfy you or just simply not good enough to others. I felt like I've been held back. Should I just..you know?

Wadeff la..I hate this. I wanna be free..

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Beautiful place to go with great companions, it was such an awesome trip.


5 things M (bukan nama sebenar) did and made the experience in Bali more hilarious:

My favorite place in Bali was definitely Uluwatu.