Name: shaXu
Location: shah alam | kota bharu, selangor | kelantan | lazy | talkative | very loud | shy around new people | a good listener | appreciate friends more than anything |LOVES ilhan mansiz |RoB | nazRiL | to use phrases "Jealous la tuh.." or " sumpah?!" | pizza | JUST HATE due dates | latecomers | noises in the morning | cockroaches |
Thursday, March 26, 2009
I had a breakdown today.
It was rather embarrassing and I didn't know what to do actually.
It started with a minor mistake I did and I distributed it. Not long after, a colleague of mine called and told me about it. I took responsible of what I did and I apologized; as I truly didn't know that I had to do what I was supposed to do. It was my first time.
Later, I received an email from one of the Head of Departments, highlighting the same mistake. Honestly, the 'teguran' wasn't harsh or anything. I took it openly but when I saw that he C.C to the other HODs, I was quite pissed off.
I wouldn't mind if he emailed me and my boss but when he did that, I just..what the?!?
Minutes later, I was called in by my boss. He wanted me to clarify with him what happened. I just told him; yes, I did what I did and I didn't know that I had to do whatever I had to. He looked at me, seeking for a better explanation. I just admitted my mistake and I was not in a position to bull or whatever. I took responsible for the mistake. He nodded and accepted it, and will reply the email to clear the air. Thank God for that. After all, it was my first time.
I walked out of the room and the next thing I knew, the tears were rolling down my cheeks like nobody's business. Shirley came and tried to calm me down. I was calm but the tears just didn't want to! I wasn't sad or super pissed-off about what happened, it was just a minor thing but the tears just took over everything. I tried to talk while walking out for lunch but the tears just went crazy and Shirley panicked.
"I don't know why!!! They just don't want to stop!! Bloody hell!! What's wrong with me?! Make it STOP Shir!!! Wadeff?!?" I laughed, with my suara kambing and of course, with the tears pouring down.
My tears stopped during lunch. Thank God, I got to eat in peace.
I went to the bathroom and there! My loyal friend..it's that time of the month, she's here. Then it struck me.
Was that crazy hormone before lunch?! With all the tears and whatnot?! The breakdown!? Damn.
During teen years, PMS is like; everything is pissing me off! Back off! But now, it's all about the tears?! What?! Serious?! I think I can handle the piss-off phase but the sensitive mode?! OMG!
Throughout the day after that, I was all happy.
And people say girls have issues. It's not the girls people, it's the freaking hormones and it's beyond our control. Try to live with that. Hahaha!
It was rather embarrassing and I didn't know what to do actually.
It started with a minor mistake I did and I distributed it. Not long after, a colleague of mine called and told me about it. I took responsible of what I did and I apologized; as I truly didn't know that I had to do what I was supposed to do. It was my first time.
Later, I received an email from one of the Head of Departments, highlighting the same mistake. Honestly, the 'teguran' wasn't harsh or anything. I took it openly but when I saw that he C.C to the other HODs, I was quite pissed off.
I wouldn't mind if he emailed me and my boss but when he did that, I just..what the?!?
Minutes later, I was called in by my boss. He wanted me to clarify with him what happened. I just told him; yes, I did what I did and I didn't know that I had to do whatever I had to. He looked at me, seeking for a better explanation. I just admitted my mistake and I was not in a position to bull or whatever. I took responsible for the mistake. He nodded and accepted it, and will reply the email to clear the air. Thank God for that. After all, it was my first time.
I walked out of the room and the next thing I knew, the tears were rolling down my cheeks like nobody's business. Shirley came and tried to calm me down. I was calm but the tears just didn't want to! I wasn't sad or super pissed-off about what happened, it was just a minor thing but the tears just took over everything. I tried to talk while walking out for lunch but the tears just went crazy and Shirley panicked.
"I don't know why!!! They just don't want to stop!! Bloody hell!! What's wrong with me?! Make it STOP Shir!!! Wadeff?!?" I laughed, with my suara kambing and of course, with the tears pouring down.
My tears stopped during lunch. Thank God, I got to eat in peace.
I went to the bathroom and there! My loyal friend..it's that time of the month, she's here. Then it struck me.
Was that crazy hormone before lunch?! With all the tears and whatnot?! The breakdown!? Damn.
During teen years, PMS is like; everything is pissing me off! Back off! But now, it's all about the tears?! What?! Serious?! I think I can handle the piss-off phase but the sensitive mode?! OMG!
Throughout the day after that, I was all happy.
And people say girls have issues. It's not the girls people, it's the freaking hormones and it's beyond our control. Try to live with that. Hahaha!
Monday, March 23, 2009
I'm down with a fever..and it's my day off.
I had my Executive Screening checkups last week and just went to SDMC to get my results today.
With a tissue in my nose because of the flu, I just sat there and listened to what the doctor got to say and explain on the results.
I've been conscious about my weight and health. But the the enthusiasm just didn't last long, I got to admit. I'd be super in the mood to workout today and a few days to come but after a week, I'd be back to my normal routine. I'd be in the mood to start my diet once and for all, and after a week, diet ntah ke mana, makan bagaikan melantak. It has been a yo-yo thing for me.
I do realized it but I just don't know how to fight it. I do follow the whatever regime Atie or Gloria put me into (they are my personal nutrition, in a way..) but the kid in me just find the way to cheat. It's so depressing. My will power is so low. There!
I'm not young and I don't want to die young. I wanna be old and healthy. If not skinny, at least healthy.
It's my wake-up call. It's time to change.
p/s: Atie, please be strict with me. =))
I had my Executive Screening checkups last week and just went to SDMC to get my results today.
With a tissue in my nose because of the flu, I just sat there and listened to what the doctor got to say and explain on the results.
I've been conscious about my weight and health. But the the enthusiasm just didn't last long, I got to admit. I'd be super in the mood to workout today and a few days to come but after a week, I'd be back to my normal routine. I'd be in the mood to start my diet once and for all, and after a week, diet ntah ke mana, makan bagaikan melantak. It has been a yo-yo thing for me.
I do realized it but I just don't know how to fight it. I do follow the whatever regime Atie or Gloria put me into (they are my personal nutrition, in a way..) but the kid in me just find the way to cheat. It's so depressing. My will power is so low. There!
I'm not young and I don't want to die young. I wanna be old and healthy. If not skinny, at least healthy.
It's my wake-up call. It's time to change.
p/s: Atie, please be strict with me. =))
Monday, March 16, 2009
K.Naj asked a colleague of mine, what does he think of me? His answer was nothing extreme but I was quite shocked to hear it. He said "she's ok but bising (loud)..". My jaw dropped and I laughed like crazy when K.Naj told me that. And it was not a lady-like laugh (giggle if that's what you guys are calling it nowadays) I laughed like I usually laugh..loud. Haha..
I know in the office or wherever I'm surrounded with the people I'm comfortable with, I prefer to be myself; I say what's on my mind, I laughed and I teased whoever, dudes or babes, tealady or even sometimes my boss. I just don't care, I know where's the line and I won't cross it. But being who I am, or what I usually do, has taken a bad turn on me when it comes to guys?
That made me wonder even more. Do guys like shy girls? Or the loud ones? Do guys more prefer girls could just be more reserved and modest? Is it just because loud-moth, know-it-all, ego manics are usually characteristics of a guy? Anyhow, I think it's perfectly fine to be shy and not be all outgoing and fake your confidence. But the key is that you MUST be able to talk when people are talking to you. I am shy around new people, it takes time for me to talkI can be outspoken, and outgoing, but usually I just like to be in the comforts of my home. I do not force people to be like me. I go out and hangout with friends and enjoy myself, but I like quiet time too. Not that I like to be loud all the time or be that "attention-seeker" freak, right?
Maybe he was intimidated by the 'outspokenness' of a woman? Or he's just lame? Hahah!!
I know in the office or wherever I'm surrounded with the people I'm comfortable with, I prefer to be myself; I say what's on my mind, I laughed and I teased whoever, dudes or babes, tealady or even sometimes my boss. I just don't care, I know where's the line and I won't cross it. But being who I am, or what I usually do, has taken a bad turn on me when it comes to guys?
That made me wonder even more. Do guys like shy girls? Or the loud ones? Do guys more prefer girls could just be more reserved and modest? Is it just because loud-moth, know-it-all, ego manics are usually characteristics of a guy? Anyhow, I think it's perfectly fine to be shy and not be all outgoing and fake your confidence. But the key is that you MUST be able to talk when people are talking to you. I am shy around new people, it takes time for me to talkI can be outspoken, and outgoing, but usually I just like to be in the comforts of my home. I do not force people to be like me. I go out and hangout with friends and enjoy myself, but I like quiet time too. Not that I like to be loud all the time or be that "attention-seeker" freak, right?
Maybe he was intimidated by the 'outspokenness' of a woman? Or he's just lame? Hahah!!
So I'm just wondering, I am shy when I have to be around new people but am I that loud?
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
This is gonna be a very bad habit.
After a long weekend (though it was just for 3 days), I had to drag myself to work. I hate waking up so early in the morning, I hate going through traffic jams etc. I know it's gonna be a never ending process for a long time. But I have to do it for GG's payment, for the bills, leisure and travelling..huhuh!!
Talk about travelling, I've been really excited planning for our next trip. Though Bali will be on in end of April with the girls and Bandung with my sister-in-laws, I just couldn't shake off the excitement for end of next year's trip! (I know, super lambat lagi..Hahah!!) Mom had no idea about this plan but my brother had hinted "Kalu dok travel je ni, bilo nok settle down?!" Ouch!~
Anyhoo, better start the travelling tabung now. Super excited, I am. Hehehe..<--eh, giggle like a school girl plak! Atie, you got to be patient with this giggly girl in me. Hahah!!
From Where You Are- Lifehouse
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
Nothing special about this song, it's just nice, it's sweet..as sweet as candy~ Haha.. I'm bored. I need a break, seriously. Oh btw, I know this news is old but I'm so freaking happy with my Wayfarer!! Wuhuuu~
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
I got this from Marr's blog and it linked to this website. Do check it out.
Get to know yourself better, you got to do some questionnaires and get the results.
Get to know yourself better, you got to do some questionnaires and get the results.
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. [friendly, yes I am but not with everybody..]
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. [hahahahaha!! I'm sorry..but, hahaha!! Am I?!]
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. [Atie, wanna comment on this? Betol ke?]
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. [err, so not true..]
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. [yezza!! tp Addmaths fail gak dulu!! Hahah!!]
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. [Guess so..hate it, love it but I'm still doing it]
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. [Yes, chicken I am..]
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. [the girls hear me say these all the time, kn?]
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. [ Erm..]
Sunday, March 01, 2009
I did it!
It took super courage for me to go and see the dentist last Saturday; coming from a girl who had been seeing the dentist for every 3 months during her teen years for the braces checkups. Not that something wrong with my teeth, I just wanna clean, polish and do some check-up. The sound of the scaling thingy just gave me the creeps. So I went, cleaned up, tampal a tooth and I was done! Wuhooooo~
I know it's gonna hurt but I just couldn't resist the pleasure of the Thai massage. I just love being pampered, my feet getting all the 'love', I could just fell asleep. But when it comes to the shoulders, I just wanna cry. It hurts so bad and the Thai aunty just keep on pressing on the urat-urat simpul and she just went "stress..stress..". Who wouldn't be so stressful when you're torturing me like that?! Huhuh..but in the end of the day, I feel so much better.
Just another weekend with Atie, we did that Thai massage and watched 2 movies.; Marley & Me and Sex Drive (no, don't give us that look..)
Marley and Me is the bittersweet tale of the “world’s worst dog,” Marley, and his family. The movie follows the 14 years of Marley’s life, and follows his owners, John Grogan (Owen Wilson) and Jenny (Jennifer Aniston), as they get married, get jobs, have children, and move. The couple deal with normal relationship problems, but their love only grows as they take care of Marley and their children.
Marley and Me is not the stereotypical cute dog movie. While Marley is cute, especially as a puppy, the movie deals with serious issues, like divorce and miscarriages. The film is a lot less about Marley, and more about the relationship between John and Jenny. By focusing on Marley, however, a lot of the seriousness is taken away, making the movie more family-oriented.
Owen Wilson and Jennifer Aniston do an excellent job. They make a very convincing couple. Everything about them seems sincere and believable. Despite this, the message of the movie is hard to pinpoint. It is hard to believe that John is ever truly happy living with his family and writing his column. He seems content, but never satisfied. Likewise, Jenny seems happy taking care of her children by the end of the movie, but so much time is spent dwelling on how unhappy she is, that it’s difficult to really believe she’s content. This may take away from the lightheartedness of Marley and Me, but it does make the movie more relatable. Everyone has aspects of their lives that they are unsatisfied with and wish they could go back and change, and it is refreshing to watch a movie that openly and honestly addresses this issue.
The movie derives from journalist John Grogan's memoir about his young family's amazingly untrained yellow Labrador. As he and wife Jenny pursue newspaper careers, babies start to arrive, and Jenny turns into a full-time mom. Meanwhile, their dog consumes sofas, eats drywall, drinks from toilets, overturns garbage, breaks everything and swallows a valuable necklace.
As the dog grow old with the family, I just couldn't help it, I shed some tears. The dog stayed loyal to the family, lovable to the kids no matter how old he was. My two old cats just stayed in my mind. My dear Puteh and Garfield, growing really old as days gone by. I just can't imagine when their time arrive. It'd break my heart. Atie was laughing away as I cried. Demss!!~
Next, SexDrive.
The synopsis, of course, sounds hilarious and interesting enough. It is about an eighteen-year-old kid named Ian that sets out on a cross country drive with his best friends Lance and Felicia in order to lose his virginity to a red-hot babe he met on the Internet. But the journey, filled with hilarious misadventures and raunchy escapades, teaches all three more than they expected about life and love. Sex Drive follows three friends on the road trip of a lifetime and it features stars such as Seth Green, Clark Duke, Josh Zuckerman and of course, the awesome James Marsden.
Typical movie, just for a good laugh, I think. Heh!
Breaking news!! Hangout with Dr.Fazlin today with Atie and she broke the news. A baby on the way..wuhuuu!!~ So congratulations to Lin & Izat!
Tomorrow back to work? Alaaaaa...
It took super courage for me to go and see the dentist last Saturday; coming from a girl who had been seeing the dentist for every 3 months during her teen years for the braces checkups. Not that something wrong with my teeth, I just wanna clean, polish and do some check-up. The sound of the scaling thingy just gave me the creeps. So I went, cleaned up, tampal a tooth and I was done! Wuhooooo~
I know it's gonna hurt but I just couldn't resist the pleasure of the Thai massage. I just love being pampered, my feet getting all the 'love', I could just fell asleep. But when it comes to the shoulders, I just wanna cry. It hurts so bad and the Thai aunty just keep on pressing on the urat-urat simpul and she just went "stress..stress..". Who wouldn't be so stressful when you're torturing me like that?! Huhuh..but in the end of the day, I feel so much better.
Just another weekend with Atie, we did that Thai massage and watched 2 movies.; Marley & Me and Sex Drive (no, don't give us that look..)
Marley and Me is the bittersweet tale of the “world’s worst dog,” Marley, and his family. The movie follows the 14 years of Marley’s life, and follows his owners, John Grogan (Owen Wilson) and Jenny (Jennifer Aniston), as they get married, get jobs, have children, and move. The couple deal with normal relationship problems, but their love only grows as they take care of Marley and their children.Marley and Me is not the stereotypical cute dog movie. While Marley is cute, especially as a puppy, the movie deals with serious issues, like divorce and miscarriages. The film is a lot less about Marley, and more about the relationship between John and Jenny. By focusing on Marley, however, a lot of the seriousness is taken away, making the movie more family-oriented.
Owen Wilson and Jennifer Aniston do an excellent job. They make a very convincing couple. Everything about them seems sincere and believable. Despite this, the message of the movie is hard to pinpoint. It is hard to believe that John is ever truly happy living with his family and writing his column. He seems content, but never satisfied. Likewise, Jenny seems happy taking care of her children by the end of the movie, but so much time is spent dwelling on how unhappy she is, that it’s difficult to really believe she’s content. This may take away from the lightheartedness of Marley and Me, but it does make the movie more relatable. Everyone has aspects of their lives that they are unsatisfied with and wish they could go back and change, and it is refreshing to watch a movie that openly and honestly addresses this issue.
The movie derives from journalist John Grogan's memoir about his young family's amazingly untrained yellow Labrador. As he and wife Jenny pursue newspaper careers, babies start to arrive, and Jenny turns into a full-time mom. Meanwhile, their dog consumes sofas, eats drywall, drinks from toilets, overturns garbage, breaks everything and swallows a valuable necklace.
As the dog grow old with the family, I just couldn't help it, I shed some tears. The dog stayed loyal to the family, lovable to the kids no matter how old he was. My two old cats just stayed in my mind. My dear Puteh and Garfield, growing really old as days gone by. I just can't imagine when their time arrive. It'd break my heart. Atie was laughing away as I cried. Demss!!~
Next, SexDrive.
The synopsis, of course, sounds hilarious and interesting enough. It is about an eighteen-year-old kid named Ian that sets out on a cross country drive with his best friends Lance and Felicia in order to lose his virginity to a red-hot babe he met on the Internet. But the journey, filled with hilarious misadventures and raunchy escapades, teaches all three more than they expected about life and love. Sex Drive follows three friends on the road trip of a lifetime and it features stars such as Seth Green, Clark Duke, Josh Zuckerman and of course, the awesome James Marsden.Typical movie, just for a good laugh, I think. Heh!
Breaking news!! Hangout with Dr.Fazlin today with Atie and she broke the news. A baby on the way..wuhuuu!!~ So congratulations to Lin & Izat!
Tomorrow back to work? Alaaaaa...